I’m pretty damn confused. In a good way though.

I griped earlier about how much I despise maya, then about how I was getting better but genuine animosity was kicking in.

But now… I really don’t know how I feel.

Today was exam day in Models, Materials, and Lighting class, and I was a mess. Even after the hours I spent learning most of the techniques via my Volvo 850 (pictured below), my confidence was cowering in the back of my mind, right where I keep my ability to talk to girls. The test began; all we had to do was model the Tybee Island Lighthouse. I felt a little better because that wasn’t nearly the magnitude of a task I was expecting, but remember; I was losing it.

There was a catch; after the test was over, we all walked around the room inspecting each others work, silently judging character based on ability to model. We now had to choose a winner. Whoever won got an automatic 100 on the exam.

I won…?

Granted that 3/4 of the class was instantly disqualified for not using blueprints, so that helped me out quite a bit. Either way, I shouldn’t have won, but damn, I couldn’t be more pleased.

I was never “taught” maya, which is what everyone else claims, aswell, and I believe that. So that leads me to believe that my late-blooming is due to my inability to grasp the simpler things that comes with the program. For this; I am extremely lucky to have run into a couple of valuable allies who taught me what I need to know to survive in the digital 3-D world, for the time being that is. So for that; they have my most sincere thanks, you know who you are.

The point is; I got a 100 on my midterm. I sincerely put my heart and soul into modeling that lighthouse, but I honestly think mine wasn’t the best.

Which begs the question; Why the hell can’t I just be proud of myself for once??

Well, the answer is simple; I can, I will, and today is that day. Good job, me.

Love,

-Danger